so finally the training days are over and work has started. I have officially entered the profession i have chosen ever so reluctantly to be in.

The training days were their own kinda of bad. But we had our fun too if i ever made a play like "sunahrey din" it would be an instant hit with so much drama and intrigue and the three officers to be in a rickshaw barely contained in it, roaming the streets of lahore laughing their heads off. I miss both of you. I wish we were working side by side too, instead we are miles (stations) apart.


I go to work knowing not what to expect, trying to act like the superior that my job title says i am. Isn't it weird when other people take u more seriously then u take yourself. This is literally being thrown into water and asked to swim so that u learn swimming. I don't think you get this feeling in any other profession..

I know friends are such a blessing . I miss them so much. Had you guys been here the workplace would have been completely different. I look forward to working with u. oh how we would laugh and make fun of ppl around us judging them ruthlessly lol..

really miss u

Why I need a Purse

For most women buying shoes and baGs is so much fun. If you like buying shoes its a given you must like buying bags too... The hit, trendy colorful bags, big and small always catch a woman's eye right?... wrong! not if that woman is me. Its not like I hate bags or something I love a stylish bag as much as the next person as long as I dont have to carry it. But!!!

Its not funny anymore when ppl say a woman s purse is like the fabled umro ayyar ki zambil (the magical bag) in which everything is put but nothing useful is ever retrieved. Men get so smug when they are like all i need is my keys my wallet and my smart phone i dont carry half the house around with me yeah right tell that to the woman to whom u handed ur wallet and ur keys during the dinner party u were at saying "please put them in ur bag" Has happened to me more than once...But i need a bag even though i hate carrying it and keep forgetting it everywhere... I need it coz unlike men i cant keep my keys and wallet in my pocket...why not? coz i dont have a pocket ... the traditional dresses for women are as impractical for going out of the house as is possible... The new shalwar qameez uses like a 100 yards of cloth with the longggggg shirt and the huge dupattas but its such a waste if seen practically. not an inch of cloth which can be used to put ur keys in... carrying a bag is not fun its work... it usually gets heavy coz we dont find time to take out stuff but hey i bet u if a man was carrying a bag it would be filled with sandwiches from last year etc and will be heaver than any woman's purse. It has to be carried, it comes in the way of anything and everything...u never know where to put it when u are out and u can often forget it but u have to carry it so if some women try to find some pleasure out of finding the cutest bag coz it is just the right trendy red color ....LEAVE THEM ALONE! and let them have that lil slice of happiness.

RaIN

I logged on to my facebook today and almost every lahori s status had something about the rain/ weather. Instant smile :)

Lahori summer is the worse. There is heat, there is congestion, there is hours of traffic jams in the afternoons and of course the lack of electricity but its days like this that make it worth having summer. I know I know most people just can not stand even the thought of summer and I am just a weirdo who likes summer but still one has to admit no rain feels better than the rain that follows a sweltering , roasting summer day. Looking forward to many such pleasant days not too far apart.

Here is hoping a lot of u have the pakora tradition alive :)

Have nice rainy day!

Close the shops!

I really dont know why i read the newspaper, it always makes me angry. I cant believe the kinda idiots that are out there and actually trying to sell us BS.

Most recently i came across an article in an urdu daily in which this genius is defending govt s plea to close shops early and have two holidays. This wise man actually wants to educate all of us "jahil" ppl that even in countries like uk and usa who have all the electricity in the world shops close at 5 or 6 pm and then only restaurants, bars and entertainment places remain open and according to him if you are looking for food or grocery at that hour you wont be able to find them..hmm i wonder which usa i was in where stores like walmart were open all night and u could buy a motorcycle at 2 am if u wanted? And even thats besides the point who cares if they close at 5pm they can these are cold climate countries we are talking about. Its so cold after sundown who would wanna go out shopping like its so hot at 2pm or 3pm here that who would want to be on the road to go for shopping.

More than that why does this right of opening my shop when i wanna need justification and defending. Linking it with electricity crisis is just stupid! yes stupid i dont even wanna think of a more sophisticated word its just stupid. Because in most shops lights are on even if they are open at 10 am. so if they just start opening shops at 7 am and close them at 5 or 6 pm they will still use the same amount of electricity maybe more as they will need more air conditioning to compete with the heat. Also what happens when the electricity shortfall increases then will we insist that opening shops for two hours is all we really need. Yeah deprive the people of this good country what few activities they do have. That sounds like a good idea coz of course who ever thinks idle brains are devil s workshops is just an idiot. There are no activities, no form of entertainment available to our masses who are annoyed, frustrated and irritated the future does not look very bright to me (thanks to load shedding literally not bright either).

God help us all!

Yaaaay me!

Oh mY God! I can not believe i am sitting in my bed back home and have nothing to do. This is the absolute best feeling in the world and truth be told i am not feeling it yet ... wow i mean i have nothing to memorize no exams to prepare for hahahha i am so happy ... its finally done with.. yes i do realize i sound crazy but i feel so good. like that song "feeling good" *grin*.

The sad part is it wont last long but hey thats not now so yaay me... i want to be lazy and i want to watch tv shows... one season after another ... eat in bed ... and just sleep whenever i feel like it.. the only three activities i want are eating sleeping and watching tv. I am so tired of public policies and fiscal plannings that i dont want to even hear those words. I am sooooo sick of intellectual thoughts at the moment that i welcome dumb comments. plz notice the format "as if a two year old wrote this" being used in this post. :)

I love working but i love a well deserved break even more :)


ps: i fixed my portable hard drive ... i am awesome :D

Sleepless

Argh! I hate it when u have to get up early the next morning and u just cant go to sleep. I am so up right now its not even funny and i am gonna be so sleepy when i need to be up.. arghhh! indeed.

Eid Contemplation

Eid mubarak to one and all!!!

I had such a lovely lazy ramzan. I fear it would be the last of its kind. Since u dont get such luxuries once you start working sigh... But hey i ll worry about it once that happens. What i am sorta down about is the fact that no one is quite as fussed about ramzan or eid as they used to be or maybe as i get. I mean I was astonished to hear that almost no one around me, round my age, was fasting ... I find that strange I mean ppl my age had gotten over buying new stuff for eid years ago and thought it was just a fun day to sleep late and i had made my peace with it but people were still fasting.

My mom thinks Ramzan is now only for poor. I dont think thats entirely true. But i have definitely seen groups emerge. People who are very close to religion and they do fast. But fast emerging is a generation perhaps far too disillusioned by religion. Educated young men and women whose parents are very religious and so were they up till two years ago. Any such ppl i talked to were actually not happy about not fasting. They were even a little ashamed but they just sounded tired. No one could really put this in words but it was the general vibe.

I fear for us. I mean i have even noticed myself getting impatient with people using religion to manipulate and blackmail others. I avoid discussions on religion. I absolutely hate people who give you the *holier than thou* treatment just because they are wearing a hijab or have just emerged from the mosque after a jumma prayer. And i cant even begin to explain how i feel about the whole Talibanization thing and girls should not be educated etc etc... ( makes me far too angry to write anything sensible :))

But i dont want to lose the things i love and i still love my religion. I admit I am not the holy islam personified woman that can preach about religion but these were the things that were a part of us, our lives, our world and our country we made them ours. Ramzan here isnt like anywhere else in the world and our Eid get togthers arent exactly as per Islamic teachings but it was a cause for celebration and it brought joy. It was just fun to wake up (however late :)) and think hey its eid today.. and yaaay only 29 rozas this year. I just dont think we should lose that and make eid just another day and ramzan just another month. But perhaps i am just another sentimental fool.

I cant help it really. I love eid. I still feel excitement of chand Raat and want to hug and greet everyone :). Eid Mubarak to All ... Have fun.. its good for u according to a lot of scientific studies(links will be provided to non believers) lolz